Christmas List

All I want this Christmas

is a different place to hurt..

a different climate

to hug my primate

urge to roll in dirt.

a different feel..

a daylong hour,

where tiny spiders

in my shower

don't stare down at me

while I'm trying to get clean.

where repair,

just outside my door..

will stop

yelling at me.

All I want this Christmas

is a different place to hurt..

where the windows

don't reflect me

and the curtains

don't trash talk

Where the hallway

doesn't laugh at me

and the keyhole

sings the blues

where the floorboards

don't batter me

if the mattress

tossed my turn.

where the lighting

doesn't frame my shame

in shadows on the walls

and the photos

of my family

don't interrogate my soul

All I want this Christmas is

a different place to hurt